Same stuff different day

So as usual, yesterday didn't go as planned. I apparently wasn't feeling better yet, so I was only able to get down the first cup of shake and not even that of my water. I attempted to use my lovely Phenergen to settle things so I could eat, but that didn't happen. The worst part is that I was actually hungry. I WANTED to eat. I attempted a yogurt and got 3 bites down before throwing it away. Why can't bodies just act the way they're supposed to?

Luckily, I had an appointment with my baby doctor yesterday so I was able to bring it up. It didn't do me a whole lot of good, as he just told me to use the phenergen when I needed it to make sure I was able to eat. He also told me to get the rest I need and all that stuff. Yeah...if I could be getting any more rest...I would. If he wanted to take me away from work to be on Short Term Disability I wouldn't say no to that ;-). Until I can start that, though, I'll have to continue with my full schedule of working all day and working on stuff at home all evening. That's the only way to get even part of my list done.

So today, I'm starting out with my spinach and parmesean bagel, again, and accounting for it in my calorie count for the day. I know that the weight loss will be much slower this way, but it's safer for my sanity if I just eat what I want while staying within the calorie guidelines of the program. That doesn't mean I'll drink my shakes and can have 4 donuts to use up my calories...it just means that the meal replacements will continue to be my main focus (since that is where most of my nutrition is coming from) but I will attempt to keep up with the good for me food, too, while allowing myself an indulgence here and there for my sanity :-)

Oh! I've also decided that I cannot weigh myself anywhere except the dr's office. Our scale at home is SO off that I went from 180 (which would have been a 12 lb weight loss from my last appointment 2 weeks ago) to a 3 lb weight loss. ANY non-gain is better than nothing at the moment and loss is even better, but I need to not stress over the numbers and just focus on the concept of a healthier eating plan. That was my real reason for starting all of this.

So...here we go again. Same stuff, different day!